A discussion on shame, selfhood, and authenticity in Jewish mysticism.
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I am so excited. We're here because a dear friend of mine once again has asked us to participate in the incredible work of Ammudim where they're having kind of a night where we're having all these conversations related to mental health, life, religiosity. And I wanted to kind of use this opportunity as an excuse to force you, to pressure you, to coersse you into conversation. We we had one conversation once. >> I came to your house. It >> was about midnight >> where it was about midnight. >> Yeah. We finished past midnight. >> Yeah. We finished past midnight. >> Okay. >> And it wasn't recorded. It wasn't videoed. And it was the first time that we met through our dear music. >> It was recorded an audio. >> Audio just video. This was before >> correct >> video. But it it was an audio. We had an audio. >> Yes. >> Yeah. Okay. And our friend Jeff Bloom. We should shout out to Jeff. >> Yes. Huge shout out to Jeff Bloom who who introduced us >> um and connected us. And [snorts] the conversation was and that conversation was about tshoua. But I I wanted to talk about something else cuz I really look towards you as somebody who is doing towards you as somebody who is doing public work in teaching Torah and bringing Torah to new people. And you look like you are authentically in touch with yourself. And [snorts] what I'm trying to figure out is why am I still struggling? Why do I still have so many days where I feel performative, inauthentic? >> Um, and you what's so interesting to me, like I'm staring over here. You have this like YouTube thing. You have a 100,000 >> YouTube subscriptions. You've blown up
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