I grew up in a strong Orthodox home, but over time I felt out of place
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I grew up in a very from orthodox household. I went to good yeshivas, good schools, you know, I had good grades. You know, I was going to be the next gador, the next RV. And then over the years, things, you know, started to to fall apart. I didn't feel in place. I felt out of place. So, I started smoking weed. And, you know, I was accepted into a new social setting amongst peers that smoked weed and we had fun. And one thing led to the next and the drug usage
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- 0:00I grew up in a very from orthodox household. I went to good yeshivas, good schools,…
- 0:30got worse over time until I developed an addiction both physical and mentally. But the most…
- 1:05place where I belonged. There was no judgment. That for me was the most important thing.…
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