The Yanuka Rav Shlomo Yehuda-הינוקא： 'הם מחליטים מי גדול, מי קטן, ומה הקדוש ברוך הוא אוהב' - מי מנהיג באמת？

2:40 that you are now a rabbi because of ... your father, your grandfather, lineage, so everyone comes to you without mistaking what you are made of, they do not know who... They say, good, he is his grandfather's, his father's, so he is also like that and... and he is my rabbi because my grandfather is. But with me, because you as if ... came with Torah alone, so everyone who came to me, everyone who was there at the beginning, it was always they wanted to check. They want to be my rabbi, as if, it was always on, I went through the hardest there is. Think, that to this day I have not even missed... maybe I missed three Shabbosos when I was not with the congregation.

3:19 I am speaking to you from the age of eighteen, Shabbosos I did not leave the students. I did not leave students. I was with them on Shabbosos, I did not leave students. I did not go on vacations, I did not run away, I did not disappear. I was always with the congregation, years, years, years. From before I married, after I married, I taught Torah every day, not... truly, all the time Torah.

3:44 And the students, and we established students, and I raised up students. You know that we have real students, to sit with the students. You... know here, thank G-d, many of the students, Torah scholars, who truly know Torah, and also to be to be a rabbi of students like my students, our students, it is not an easy thing. It... Torah scholars, they are not students, they are lions. There are students here who have mastery of the Shas, the... Shulchan Aruch, the Rishonim, the Acharonim, Kabbalah.

4:11 Each one has a hand, it... each one is a lion. And thank G-d, the students, and... it is also a merit for me that I have students like these. It elevates me, I am happy about it. And also applause for the holy students. Yes. But, but, and I say, the... effort, and the...

4:35 and of course, you know, to sit and... and to be with the... with the students for many years, and you see that you, ... also one, one, I will not say his name, but you know him, who was a very great head of a kollel, and he had some 30 students under him, and I was some seven / eight years ago in his kollel I would give words of Torah there between Mincha and Maariv, I would sit there, and he was always with his back, sitting and not listening, and wanting to close, and this, and he is a yungerman, as if, he was, he is a rabbi, a rabbi, head of a kollel, a Torah scholar, as if, and you know him, he has a dignified appearance and everything, and he...

5:15 he, thank G-d, was... many opponents. He was like that, he was not an opponent, and not, and not this, and... and thank G-d, afterwards he... ... no, it was as if, you know, I am speaking of then, around 8 years ago, 9 years ago, and then he, thank G-d, he is a great head of a kollel, yes, he has ..., many students under him, I was there, I was much younger than him.

5:44 And he is much older in age, and... and... and he is a great man. And as if you were there, and as if, he turns his back, and not a student, and he, and then he came, like this, I remember that he ... began to test me on all kinds of things, I was not, I was also simple like this, not... and then he... became a student. He took the... he said to his students, from today I am his student, if you want, come with me, if you want, each one, I am closing the kollel.

6:10 And he turned his whole kollel, all, all, all of the 30 Torah scholars... he has Torah scholars there. They are... they are ... with our students. You know him. He is a very great Torah scholar. You know, ... you know who it is. He has a dignified appearance, and he is a lion himself. He is something ... great. A white beard, standing next to me here. You know him. And he is not here now. You surely already understood who it is.

6:36 So this... So ... I say, there are those who from age 14 yes, there are those too, there are those who are still, thank G-d .... students and everything, there are all the styles, thank G-d. But I am speaking right now about the, about the, about the... when I went out into the world, at age 18, with the lessons, with the... with the rabbis, with everything we went through at the beginning. It was a very, very, very hard story, of two, three, four years of wars.

7:05 You feel as if you suddenly come into the world, you suddenly think that it is as if everyone will want, you know, Torah and strengthening and so on, and suddenly you discover that it is suddenly like a private home, it is like ... , like, suddenly you discover like a mafia within this whole world, and you say, what is this? It is like, you know, with criminals you are not allowed to come near here, this criminal you are not allowed to come near here, by the territory, what are you coming here for? What, you are not allowed to be here.

7:30 You are not allowed to come near this, you are not allowed to be here, you are not allowed to meet this one, you are not allowed to speak? I did not understand what is this thing, they teach Torah, what is this thing, no, like a competition, suddenly you discover that people who supposedly should be the most people of faith, and of trust, are busy with competition, and with... and with money, and with jealousy, and with things that... that they, did things against me that are a crime, and I did not go to complain, and I did not do anything, and... and when I was at a lesson in Netanya, it was a lesson on Thursday, I gave a talk, why to this day am I with bottles like these?! I was there at the talk,

8:06 and in the middle of the talk there, they brought me water, someone brought me water, and you know, you go to drink like this, looking at something, then someone who was next to me said to me, Rabbi, do not drink this, look at the water, they looked at the water, and there was in it like, like... like bubbles, something ... , I said, I do not like soda, I like water, I do not know what this substance was, it was a kind of substance that they did this on the... on the... floor, and they did this to it, it is like it began to eat everything, it is simply insane, and they asked who brought this, no one answered, no one spoke, and afterwards as if they understood that there is something strange, I said, still it could be something

8:41 from Heaven, I said, maybe it is a mistake, maybe it is, they said to me how a mistake, what mistake, who would put you in a glass cup something like this, it was insane, and afterwards they even went, they took a person who is impaired in soul, a person who is as if mentally ill, a person who is not sound in his mind, who as if also this, and they began to fill his head against me, with grave things, that he should go and harm. You understand, as if what ...

9:06 things. Only out of their jealousy, and their hatred, that you... will not lay your foundations in the world, because you... suddenly you understand that they are actors, suddenly you understand that in this world there are many actors, who instead of teaching Torah, and revealing G-dliness, and raising up students, and lighting up the light of Hashem, are busy with money, with wealth, with politics, with... with a competition of patrons, who needs this competition? Who looks at these foolish things?

9:30 Do I even care about patrons, what not patrons. I am seeking the Holy One, blessed be He, I do not need anyone. I only need the Holy One, blessed be He, to be with me, a wise king, and that is it. ... patrons, ... Now, but understand you go and you say, you look and you say, wow, what is going on here? You look and you say, what is this? Like, where are they busy? With what? Where is their head placed? In ...

9:54 You say, like, and they sit and think about you, what to say about you? How to say about you? What not this? And you know what they did? All that they sent, they would try to send me, to... they sent me all kinds of questions, they also came to try to test me, not only did they come out in shame and disgrace, I also tested them, I asked them questions, they went, out of their disgrace they did not know how to answer, they stopped with this.

10:18 Afterwards they went, what did they go do? They already reached a state of ... inventing ... Sabbateans, and inventing ... demons, and Torah from the demons, Torah from the demons. A Torah of toil. Is this a Torah of demons?! Fools. ... opponents. Yes, look, I will tell you, the opponents of Rebbe Nachman once, those were opponents of a high level. Today it is not a high level, it is not...

10:45 you know, to be ... to be in the area of Rebbe Nachman, opponents of a high level, it... How do you say it? Of a high level. But I also say, what is there to be jealous of in me? What do you want from me? Sit, learn, learn Torah, dedicate from your time to learn, it is a lot of toil, it is a lot of time from life, it is a lot of giving up, it is a lot of sacrifice. Learn, review, go over it again, raise up students, let the world test you, teach Torah, let them ask you, go out to the public, teach, shine Torah, come, the Holy One, blessed be He, will raise you up, ... be.

11:17 Why do you hide and all day long want crowns, and want honor, and want money, and want patrons? You do not prove yourselves. Prove yourselves and afterwards we will see you, why do you ... ? Do you understand? This is what my head said. And suddenly you see that they are busy with all kinds of honor, and competitions, and politics, and... these are things that you say, what is going on here? A rabbi must teach Torah, a rabbi must bring the souls of Israel close to the Holy One, blessed be He.

11:42 And understand, I went through a hardship that you do not even understand my days, my tears. Let me even tell you a story. Every second applause, what will be? Look what a ... you are. Every moment applause, I also Happy are you, tzaddikim I will tell you a story, even a little. I have not told anything, I am telling you, if I were to tell you the story, it does not end.

12:06 You do not even understand ... the edge of the... of what... I told, a long story, long, long, long, long, many things there, many, there was once that I was with one of the students, and it is a story that very ... it is a story that very, as if ... , that pained me very much. Very much. And I already said to what point it reached, the waters reached the soul, as they say.

12:30 I was in some place in Jerusalem with one of the students, who is a student to this day, and... that student, had a friend who is ... , he had an acquaintance, who is a big donor, a man of means, and he was close to some certain rabbi. Up to here, did you understand? I had a student, who... he, he brought someone close to Judaism, who is that, that man was a donor of some certain rabbi.

12:58 A donor. Now, that one was a man who goes with non-Jewish women, not a fearer of Heaven, not a Torah and mitzvos observer, truly a man who commits transgressions, openly, publicly, not... and he went with that certain rabbi, and that rabbi would honor him, and esteem him, and honor him, and everything, and this ... , gives him great honor, and this. Now, that rabbi also, in the same breath, would go and speak against me, to that donor, and to that student, about me things that I...

13:28 So that student of mine said to him, to that rabbi, he said to him, Honored sir, this doesn't add up for me. This donor, I see with my own eyes, like, I know him, that he is a transgressor, and he, he comes in to you, and he has a non-Jewish woman in the car, and you honor him, you say to him, tzaddik, tzaddik, tzaddik, tzaddik, well done. And the Rabbi, I take him all day to the mikveh, at four in the morning, prays with him at sunrise, he gives us a lesson all day, all day it's, you say about him as if he is a demon.

13:57 a demon. I want the Rabbi to explain to me what he means. Uh... Explain to me, he says, just explain to me, he says to him, how is it that about this one you say so, and how, about me, do you say so? Give me an explanation. He presses him, give me an explanation. How does the Rabbi say this? Uh... You see him like this, he simply, uh... he doesn't know what to answer him. That student simply really rebuked him, reproved him, and, like, understood that this is simply madness.

14:29 After that, going even further, that that certain rabbi, that, uh, had a student, who brought me a garment, brought me a suit, brought me such a suit, and brought me such a garment, such clothing, such an outer garment, at a time when it was ... cold, winter and so on, and we were in a certain place in Jerusalem, and we prayed, and then that student of that rabbi, says to him, Listen, I have to get to the Yanuka and so on, I ...

15:00 he is a demon, and so on, and severe things, I want him to bring me the garment, I don't even want to wear it, so that I have, like, to wear the... the... the... this Sitra Achra, that is how he really taught. I was in that place, that student didn't know what to say to me, didn't know how to tell me this. We were in Jerusalem, I had just printed those writings for Erev Shabbos and so on, and he said to me, this is the Rabbi, that is what he said to do and so on, and it was very cold.

15:25 I took off this garment, I took off the garment, I brought it to him, and he went to bring it to that one, because of the influence of that rabbi, who said about that one from the... this side, and he was on me, like, understand what persecution it was, you understand? Like, what humiliations, do you understand at all the humiliations, the... persecutions, the humiliations over nothing, only because I did good. Do you know what they told me?

15:49 You want that th... th... th... they won't talk, that not...? Don't do miracles. Don't do miracles. Did you hear?! How do you do miracles?! How do you do miracles?! I'm talking to you that there are things, that... that... already at age 18? Already at age 18, yes. There were many miracles. Know these are things that students know. And I'll tell you something too.

16:15 Don't think that everything that... came out outside, and the miracles and so on, that's everything. There are many more things than that, and you know, in a barrel of wine, a little wine is spilled, like there is in a barrel, a lot of wine. But, thank Hashem, also, to go to a good measure that is much, is much greater than, not everything that... there are many things that also, you know, not everything, also think, there are also some that... there are many things that I also cannot say, and cannot tell, but there are many things that I also know that I will have to take with me, after 120, and I...

16:45 will not tell, also there are many things that could also be uh... embarrassment or something, that I do not tell and I do not say, and I also do not say my pursuers, and the... I don't get into that level, but, but understand that the hurt and the... and the pain and the persecution and the... and the claims, don't give lessons, they told me not to give lessons. Do you know what it is not to give lessons? Not to publish books? Don't publish, don't, don't exist, they sent, once I was in a certain place, at a certain lesson in a certain place, some criminals came, criminals, a few criminals came in, they said who is here Shlomo Yehuda? Like that, I was 20, like that, who... who is here ...? That's how they came in,

17:23 such hooligans, that's how they shouted, hooligans, and then a few students, we were at a lesson like that, it's about 100 people, 200 people, Torah scholars sitting, people of understanding, fear of Heaven, came in and start making a mess and so on, I said to them, come, I, they came to the side looking at one another, they said to him, tell me, they said to me: You look like a good person. I said to them: True. So they said to me: Do you know that they sent us here, to hurt you, to wreck your place here, to throw your... , to shut off your speakers, to shut off your...

17:57 the lesson and so on, and so on, yes, well, we, we they said to me, listen, but know that these and those and those and those pursue you see that, like, you understand that today this world, of the... the world of Torah, is a world the most unrestrained there is, that it is, like, a world that... people think they have ownership over the Holy One, blessed be He, over the Torah, over the...

18:22 over the people, over the wealthy patrons, with askanim, they decide who is great, who is small, who is above, who is below, who is permitted, who is forbidden, what is true, what is not true, what the Holy One, blessed be He, loves, who is great, who is small, they decide, what doesn't look right in their eyes they say so, what doesn't look right in their eyes they say so, they decide what is real, what is not real, what is right, what is not right, what is false, what is not false, they decide, they say things, people can invent things endlessly, invent endlessly just so that you, won't have strength, because they know that you are truth they are afraid of you. I said, you know what I said, what do you care, you say I am nothing?

19:00 let this nothing be, what is the problem? why are you fighting me? You understand, you see that... that it has already reached war, that they really tried to hurt physically out of hatred and without any reason, you understand from here that it is, like, their fear of money, and pride and jealousy take a person out of the world. Instead of a person understanding knowledge and believing, there is not they don't have this knowledge.

19:25 - The Rabbi: The question is called for, surely they don't know. What is it? ... The question is called for, after all ... But this is a generation, this is a generation that you, you are today in a generation that is, today the generation, the state of the generation today is so crooked, and... you don't understand what jealousy is today. Jealousy is a sick trait, jealousy today, today simply destroys. ... Today a rabbi, I said: jealousy, lust, and honor take the person out of the world, they do not take out the man, the Sages said, they do not take out the young man, they do not take out the boy, they do not take out the woman, they take out...

20:00 the person, as if you will be a person, you will be the person you will be the completeness, even it takes out the person, the completeness. So the Sages said: jealousy, lust and honor, take the person out of the world. Like, they emphasized, even if you are the greatest, you too can err and leave. No, jealousy, and especially that you, like, I can only tell you, my enemies are not 30 or 20 years old, it...

20:26 60 and above. Enough for the wise with a hint, understand understand, like I am not their age, he could be my grandfather, instead of being ... for me, and drawing close and so on, he chooses to be this, and to send people aged thirty, activates all kinds of people to nonsense. Low level, what can I tell you? ... I am not at that level. I am not at that level, they are not at my level. I am not at that level.

20:50 And I also don't say anything. With Hashem's help, if I want to speak, I will speak. For now I don't go down to such levels. I pray to the Holy One, blessed be He, that they leave me alone and allow me to learn, to teach, to continue shining Torah. And so, thank Hashem, today today I do not respond or get involved in anything. Only what they tried to hurt me, like, physically, only that, I understood that there is someone who investigates it, that they are investigating it from the...

21:17 police, these people, what what the purpose is, and so on, that is the purpose. That's it, nothing beyond that, it doesn't interest me. Not... not beyond ... - Rabbi, the question required after all this series of things, which is a handbreadth of all that the Rabbi, of the Rabbi's life story, how the Rabbi took all these things, the hardships, the...

21:41 one could say death before the eyes, really, really, to turn everything, to turn everything, and to be a tower of light for all those around him. Every time I am broken, that I have some distress, I come to the Rabbi from afar, from close. The Rabbi gives hope, the Rabbi gives joy, the Rabbi plants in each and every one. Don't despair, we are only at the beginning, we are beginning.

22:05 How did the Rabbi turn everything, and he also makes everyone happy, everyone, and a tower of light that shines to the whole world. He gives the soul ...we love you Rabbi Mordechai - Okay, I will explain I'll tell you something, I can tell you that... I went through truly hard moments, of brokenness. You don't know, even before big lessons, very big, very, very, very big, that they would really go and shut down the lessons and fight and threaten, and...

22:39 I really was, we needed even hidden security guards to guard, and so on, from crazy people, people really with ignorance and... jealousy and hatred that bothers them. And you say, you say, what, I was really broken, and I tell you, you feel the hiding of the Face, and you know, you, on one hand, you go and teach and you finish a lesson and you receive the public, and you can barely stand, move, and I was, it was really hard for me, and I really, and suddenly you hear that they are against you, and you say, instead of receiving strengthening, instead of receiving help, instead of receiving support, that someone will tell you how good you do, how you helped, how you did good, you receive another sword, and another sword, and you look to Heaven and you feel

23:24 and I cry to Hashem, and... and... you don't, you don't even understand, you don't..., I can't tell you even a part, of... of how many tears I shed here in this world, how many tears, because I, I tell you, there were moments, I never show, I never show when it hurts me, when it..., I don't even hint anything. One of my practices is not to hint, not to tell, not if I am sick, I don't say that I don't feel well, now I say, think what this is, think once, from age 18, since I stood students, I didn't disappear from the students, I was with them day after day, they saw me, maybe a few one can count four days, three days, that I disappeared I was always with the public, until today, I wasn't absent even once,

24:06 do you know what that is? think about it, I wasn't absent, they always saw me, always, every day I didn't ... run away and I didn't go and I didn't disappear for years, years, all the years, Shabbosos, students, everything, they told me go, go out, something like that, the few times that I went to be alone a bit here to... two days, one day, but never, I am always from the public, always...

24:30 I was, I didn't suddenly disappear for two weeks, for a week, disappear for a month, no, I was always with the public, I was always with the Jewish people, always to go and..., and... and give strength and strengthen and... to be always with everyone, and all the time with me, and all the time with everyone. You see, like, the..., the... the strength, ... You ask me where this strength came from, I'll tell you the truth, I admit that...

24:55 I was in moments that..., of a broken heart the greatest to the Holy One, blessed be He, and I felt only that the Holy One, blessed be He, Himself, is giving the strength. That is the real answer, truly, I'm telling you the truth. I don't know that I could really do anything, it's not realistic, I know that it is only the Holy One, blessed be He. And I say, to come and take credit myself, to tell you now, I did this, I was like this, or I did this, I did nothing, I remember myself that I was broken, heartbroken, I couldn't do anything, I simply felt the Holy One, blessed be He, who simply said to me, Be strong, like, strengthen yourself, I am with you.

25:32 And therefore all the niggunim are also mine, pay attention, all the names, "Chazak V'Ematz," "I Am With You," "Alone on the Road," these are niggunim, "The Lone Shepherd" "The Lone Shepherd," these are niggunim that came out of me from crises. Every niggun, nig..., the niggun Alone on the Road. That is a niggun that I was on that day, you don't know, it was a point, a day, for example the niggun, there is a niggun Alone on the Road. A niggun that I was on that day at a point of a really great breakdown. A day I was frantic and...

26:00 I really did, thank Hashem, so much good and strengthening and... and... and everything and I did good. You say, listen, you, on one hand you do good in the world, you know, once ... I manage to save people from committing suicide, you manage to help people so that they don't commit suicide. The Holy One, blessed be He, thank Hashem, does the miracles, I don't do the miracle. The Holy One, blessed be He, does the miracle, you do a good thing, you see them fighting against you for the good that you do.

26:24 You know, listen, today a soldier who walks down the street, will save some... one Jew from death, they'll call him a hero, they'll strengthen him, they'll tell him well done. Thank Hashem, I tell you there are more than 200 people who, thank Hashem, were saved from death, were saved from dying. So you say, you say, saved from dying, up above I haven't counted. saved from dying, thank Hashem, saved through miracles.

26:48 And..., and... and children whose tumors disappeared, and things of... rescue, and good things that were saved. Not only do you receive strengthening, you don't receive strengthening, you receive, like, why are you doing this? You receive, like, a war? You receive, like, why?! If I were a simple soldier, they would strengthen you. Here, like, you do good, you shed light, you strengthen. If it's good, what's the problem? You do it too, do it. Do good. Why jealousy and trying to...?

27:13 They are afraid of you.... True, I know that they are afraid. That he is fair game. Truly this did... . What did I say there? ... feels fair game ... . Yes, I said fair game, right. ... he has no life ... . True ... Do you know what it is to hear troubles, do you know what it is, say I teach you, sitting with you on Shabbos, say we sit on Shabbos, we sat there, thank Hashem, learning and everything, from sunrise, after, say, I had a night when I didn't...

27:47 sleep, and afterward I was with you at sunrise and learning and everything. I teach you questions and halachos and whatever you want and everything. We sit, we finish, I go back to my own learning. After that we have Mincha, after that Shabbos ends there is the road. And there are other things before me, and fateful decisions about things, about people, doctors, things... important. Decisions of life and death are on my table, no joke.

28:13 from all kinds of places in the world, from all kinds of Jews. Heavy matters, really, I know many things that I cannot tell them. You cope with pressures, with a burden, and everyone on you, and from here, and from there, and from this side, and... and everything, and you suddenly understand what it is, like, you have a huge amount to manage, and to do, and prayer, and... and times, and suddenly this one is not satisfied, and that one from here, and this isn't good, going, you have to...

28:40 Do you know what it is to cope? It is a very hard thing in general, to..., to... lead two people, I'm not talking to you about that, it's it's a very hard thing to grab this, and grab that, and answer that one, and help that one, on one hand to guide here, and guide there, and there is some rabbi with a community, that I have stud... who has students, and you help here, and you... there are a huge number of things, a huge number of details, a huge number of... it is so much of a burden, and... and no one at all understands the...

29:05 slot you are in, the place you are coming from, and... it's coping with many things, and also, now, it's not that I'll come now, come home, and unload this on someone, I am by myself, I don't talk about it with anyone, I don't talk, I don't cope with anyone, I go and play, exactly. The niggun Alone on the Road. The niggun Alone on the Road, is a niggun that came from one day of... I was already seeing stars, from how hard it was for me, I was seeing stars, from how confused I was, and...

29:33 I didn't know myself, right, left, left, it was already really hard for me, and also where are my set learning sessions? Where, you ask what's happening with this, what's happening with that, it's written here, Shulchan Aruch. I need to learn too, I have a lot to learn, my set sessions are also a burden in themselves. So... You see the..., also the set sessions, you add the set sessions on top of that, you add everything on top of that. It, it... it's hard it's hard, it's hard, it's hard, it's not easy, it's not easy, it's a burden, it's hard, and...

30:00 and if not for the Holy One, blessed be He, helping, what is this?! It's only the Holy One, blessed be He. And then I played this niggun Alone on the Road, because I felt as if you say, you want, like, to walk on the road, you want to shed light, you want to give, and in the place where you feel strengthening, you feel support, encouragement, something, you, like, there is none. So that's why I say, this, this is a path that, like, grew from the Holy One, blessed be He, that not only did they try (not) to lift it up, they tried to put it out, to fight it, to come out against it, and there is much more that I will not be able to tell you, that you don't, that I cannot tell, these are things that I

30:34 have to take with me, but you are not even aware of the levels of madness and darkness in this world, because I am not one who goes and... and and talks, I guard myself, and in hidden places my soul weeps, of course I say, but I don't go and tell, and don't... try to say like this and like that, if I don't feel well and so on, I don't say, I cope You know how many times I didn't feel well, I was, I couldn't move, and there is a reception of the public now, in two hours, an hour of reception, ...

31:04 already after that, neitz, and after that again, and after that a shiur, and the same day a shiur, Sunday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, ... on the holidays, four in-, day after day, consecutive, and neitz, and reception of the public, you don't, there is no such thing, rest, ... vacation, I don't feel well. Now 700 people are waiting for you here in the synagogue, can you say, I'm not, I'm not coming?! Can you say, I don't feel well?

31:28 There is no such thing as saying that, you have to continue, you can't stop, no one tells you to stop. Believe and you will prevail ... So you need to understand, you need to understand, that this that this surely is not my strengths, these are strengths that the Holy One, blessed be He, gives, and therefore I cannot attribute them to myself. So the niggunim, these are niggunim that I played out of difficulty, out of pain, every single niggun, and I gave it to the Holy One, blessed be He.

31:54 It's just one thing, it's a thing if, if you knew the tractate itself, you would have... ... What do you say? - The joy is the Rabbi's maybe, maybe part of the difficulty is telling it to others? - You are right, "Anxiety in a man's heart, let him speak of it." Look, first of all, truth be told I told you a little of it, it's a little, how do you say, ...

32:19 so that you also judge me favorably, that you are not aware of... Try also, like, to see my slot, through my eyes, how I see things. You see, like, how I look sitting on a chair and so on, you don't know what I went through to climb, like, in order to go, and... and... and teach and give, and... I'm talking only about that, and where is the period of the shidduchim, what I even went through there, ... at all, pffff, stories upon stories, if you knew, it, you don't know, I told nothing, you don't know at all.

32:54 Nothing I didn't tell you anything, believe me. You don't know, thank Hashem, and how many miracles, and there were many good things, and there were also many miracles and many things, and... it's a path, I say, look, I personally don't know if it's a path or not a path regarding what you asked, whether to tell or not to tell, or to share or not to share. I... Look, there's one, you know, if he is sick, he wants the whole world to know he is sick, he publicizes, I'm sick, I don't feel well, I'm this, I never want them to pity me, and I don't tell the..., the, what I, like, I don't tell.

33:29 I can ... nothing, I say nothing, nothing at all, I continue. I don't like it, I don't... - But he will let it out, no? - Yes, I take it out to the Holy One, blessed be He, I don't try to come and... and talk it out. But But, the way is, like, I try in practice that they should be involved with the Holy One, blessed be He, to illuminate the Torah, to give you, you know, thank Hashem, I say, to this day, there are so many questions and answers with us here, among the students, I say each one has notebooks of questions and answers, of Torah, of... truly, the books we have at the institute, that, with Hashem's help, came out, you don't know what, amounts of Torah that, with Hashem's help, the books that came out, it's something,

34:10 it is truly a great light and very important that it come out to the world. And I tell you, truly, the path is an important path, and a true path, and a pure, holy and clean path, that we, with Hashem's help, will learn Torah for its own sake, Amen and illuminate the light of Hashem, blessed be He, in the world, Amen that we do good and reveal His G-dliness, blessed be He, Amen we will illuminate the true light of the souls of the Jewish people, Amen we will do good in the world, Amen we will shed light in the world, Amen we will drive the darkness out of the world, Amen to do good, Amen we will shed light, Amen and to be always in joy, Amen and we will think only good, Amen and may the Holy One, blessed be He, bless you with all the blessings,

34:50 Amen and I love you with a great love, ... and pray for you, and bless you, and pray for your success and your salvation, that you will succeed, Amen and I thank the Holy One, blessed be He, who gave me, thank Hashem, holy and righteous students and Torah scholars, which is... truly wealth and tears in the eyes, to see one by one, I won't say names, but one by one truly, you know that there are here, you know, be careful with each one here, truly, I tell you, there are here Torah scholars real, immense, people don't know but truly what students I have raised, there are students here whom we raised over the years pure, holy, righteous, with...

35:32 understanding, stature, well-versed in the entire Shulchan Aruch, the Talmud, ... on their own, that's something great, I... am careful with them, you can..., you know, it's not..., they know everything. You sometimes see that when a question is asked, they answer how... answers leap out here in the air, and... and they know everything, it's... it's... a privilege, a gift. So thank Hashem, this is also to give thanks for the merit that Hashem gave lions like these, and Torah scholars like these, holy and righteous, and we bless you with all the blessings, that you continue to shed the light of Hashem, Amen that the Name of Heaven be loved through you, that you have good lives, Amen and that you succeed, Amen and shed the light of Hashem, blessed be He, in the world, Amen that we have good tidings,

36:14 and that we have wonderful salvations and miracles, Amen with Hashem's help, and we will meet at... at neitz, but now we will do Maariv.