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I Don't Know If I'll Wake Up

15K views · May 24, 2026

Rabbi Yitzchak Breitowitz

A personal story of illness and Jewish perseverance.

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I've had a lot of amazing experiences, and like any person, I've had a lot of challenging ones. But, you know, to me, just knowing that I am a Jew for Judaism until my very last breath, you know, it almost took the haters on X and the anti-Semites and those trying to convert me last minute that actually strengthened my resolve. So, go ahead. >> I yeah, I want to read it. I saw you um said, "I'm a Jew for Judaism and always will be." And then someone said, "Uh may Yeshua be with you. Please accept his love for you. I would see you spend forever with us." And you responded, "I'm a Jew for Judaism." That is that's everything right there. >> I will say that phrase till my very last breath. >> A few years ago, I connected with Adam Fox on X. He was a traditional Jew that his life got flipped upside down when he realized that he had a disease that would literally destroy his body and a few times almost end his life. The past 3 months, his condition worsened, and as many of you may know, he lost far too much weight and parts of his body have been shutting down. We've become friends online, and after I, along with the world, saw Adam not only fighting for his life, but growing in his Judaism, I asked him to come on the show. Last week, things took a really bad turn, and I sent Adam well wishes, and he said that tomorrow he's having surgery that unfortunately, there's a good chance that he may not wake from it. Kudos to him for making space to have this conversation, and this conversation is the night before his surgery. And we talk about what it's like to literally

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  1. 0:00I've had a lot of amazing experiences, and like any person, I've had a lot of…
  2. 4:05box. So for many of you wondering why you're seeing an X, why my Hebrew name…
  3. 7:39>> So, uh, in February 14th, 2025, started out like any other normal day. I got…
  4. 11:48of a way to get TPN, which was probably going to be a port, I had…
  5. 15:23never going to be on Hashem's level. And because of that, there's certain questions that we're…
  6. 20:33strengthened my soul go ahead. >> I yeah I want to read it. I saw you…
  7. 24:04of unity that you've brought together. And again, I don't know if it was necessarily intentional,…
  8. 27:37together. Yes, we have our differences, but that's okay. Let's talk about it. Let's Let's come…
  9. 32:45It's asking for to look over the Jewish people, to look over our indigenous homeland of…
  10. 36:21will. Let's create kindness in this world. Let's create passion. And that's my one challenge to…

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